Hello! It has been a long while!
I am sorry I have not been posting at all lately, I have been busy with work, school, family, and other commitments.
BUUUUT, I’M BACK BABY!
It has been a while since I wrote about anything, but here I am to tell you I am doing okay. I am doing better than okay! I am doing everything I want to do, maybe not where I want to be with it all, but I am doing great!
As you can tell, in the past, I was back and forth and back and forth with my self worth and my depression. And it turns out that I am not going back and forth anymore. I am slowly going back to my normal happy self you all knew back in the day!
You see, I have been going through this long battle of trying to get out of the hole I dug myself . I have been trying to get better physically for the first time in a long while.
You see, I suffer from something called Endometriosis.
What is that?
Description: Endometriosis is a disease in which the uterus’ lining migrates outside the uterus. Endometriosis may occur anywhere in the body, even in the brain, but the more common sites are the ovaries, Fallopian tubes, bladder, vagina, abdominal cavity, and colon. The disease can be painful before and during menstruation, and can lead to infertility.
Symptoms: Pain occurs at the time of menstruation, and also possibly at other times of the month. A sharp pain during ovulation may be due to an endometrial cyst located in the Fallopian tube that ruptures as the egg passes through. Endometriosis can also cause pain during sexual activity.
Number of Americans diagnosed: 5.5 million women and girls in the USA and Canada. 1 out of 10 women.
Treatments and long term problems: Without treatment, endometriosis gets progressively worse where cysts and implants may grow and spread to other parts of the pelvis, and in severe cases, to the urinary or intestinal tracts. Eventually, adhesion may form (rigid, web-like structures of scar tissue that can attach to nearby organs and cause pain), infertility, and intestinal obstruction.
I am Recovering
I had my surgery in April and I have not been feeling super better but I have been a bit better. Suffering from Endo and PCOS is just hard to cope with. The pain is still there, I still flare up and I am still searching for a pain reliever.
I have had it early on in life and I just thought I had horrible periods and the heavy bleeding was normal. Never did I know that at 13 I was starting a long road of mental and physical pain.
I took a little break from school so I can just focus on work and my personal life, reminding myself I am 23 years old and it is okay that I do not have it all together.
I am accepting the fact I might not ever have children again and I will have to have my lady parts taken out of me at a young age. I had the ability to have one wonderful surprise wild child at 15 and I am forever thankful. Things do happen for a reason.
I have been thinking about becoming a foster parent later in life if the universe is opposed to the idea of bearing another child again. I am fine with that. Being a troubled youth myself that luckily never went through foster care, I want to give a life back to those who were never given a chance to have a decent bed to sleep on.
Anyways, Back to Business
I have read through all the stories you all sent to me and I still want to post them. I have to gather enough stories to put in a post in groups with similar stories.
I have been getting back to re reading old books and new ones as well. I would love to write book reviews too as well as working on my own books. I have a few in progress and I need to get back on that and re fall in love with life.
I do! I will write once a week and post every Friday at least. I need to get back on the groove of things. I know I promised before, but that was before when my Endo got really bad and had me bed ridden for a couple of months and I didn’t want to write in pain.
Everything will be random.
I will post what I feel like, like I normally do!
My words always lead me to trouble, or is it that trouble finds me?
Weather the case might be, I am happy to be back!
Until Next Time!