I have been a practicing witch for almost 10 years.
I have started my journey when I turned 13 and broke away from my strict Catholic faith. I love every religion and I knew Wicca was calling my name from the beginning. Every Halloween since I was a child I have ALWAYS wanted to be the witch. I wore the buckled shoes, had a broomstick, and I had my pointy hat.
I have been studying different things at my own time. I have been studying the elements and what they mean (the deeper meaning). I study crystals, stones, rituals, spells, and so many other things and recently I picked up my first deck of tarot cards.
I have been putting off learning how to read cards for a long time.
I have always wanted to read cards. I have always wanted to learn the ways of fortune telling and everything in between. I wanted to help others and share the gift with others. I dreamed of holding spiritual knowledge for so long, but I held back.
I held back for the sake of respecting the balance of things. I knew it was not my time to learn and I held back so I would not rush into anything and just be reckless with it. I wanted to properly get a feel for it before I dove in. I read runes and bones, but I knew I was not ready.
I studied them for years, but I never thought I was ready to practice with them yet.
I found my cards in a local shop in Bedfordshire England.
The shop was full of crystals, wands, and all sorts of mystical stuff. I loved them ALL, but I did not really buy much from there. Because one: I did not have a lot of money on me, pounds are at a higher value than my dollar. Two: I know I cannot take so much back to the states, it will cost me a lot to send my heavy suitcase back. Three?: I want to take my time collecting my craft tools over years instead of buying in bulk and overwhelming myself.
I saw them in a glass case at the very bottom. My eyes were on the rings and crystals until I felt a pull towards the bottom of the case. There were about 5 different kinds of cards, but my eyes were fixed on a more simple deck. I wanted the original Raider Waite tarot card deck. The cards were designed by Pamela Colman Smith, her artwork was divine. I was thinking, “What a better place to buy the cards! I will get them here in England!” (Said the Californian).
And yes, I did buy them, no one gifted them to me… I am a solitary witch. There are not a lot of witches in the little town where I live. It is pretty frowned upon in the tight-knit Christian community. I have to make do with what I have available and I did not want to pass up the chance to get the deck. They called to me. It was the right time.
I opened the box right on the bus home, ready to connect with them.
I know, I know. It sounds like Mumbo Jumbo to you, but deep emotional feelings come hand-in-hand with faith. And that is exactly what I had. I was emotional like I wanted to cry of happiness and my stomach was full of butterflies and my heart raced super fast. It was the first time I felt good about myself for so long. My worries and sadness washed away and I became confident like the cards were indeed an old friend happy to see me again.
I shuffled them, again and again, all night feeling the cards flow through my hands to familiarise myself with them. It all felt so good. So right.
Connor (my man), was very skeptical and asked me not to practice in the house. He saw me refresh my memory of the cards and he soon let me do a few readings on myself. It was a rough start, I had to look back online and on the booklets to remember a few things and the different meanings and all that good stuff. The more I practiced, the more I felt confident and I was reading the cards fluently as if they were literally speaking to me through touch.
I forget to throw out the “Disclaimer”.
I do. I got so excited I started to do readings on a few people and then my Facebook/ Snapchat friends. I always forget to mention that the readings are NOT set in stone. They can be altered by a change of thought.
There are a few things that are out of your control and you cannot change those readings, but there are some where you definitely can.
Do you remember Alice from the movie Twilight? She could see the potential future. She could see what would happen if all factors were the same and nothing alters or changes. (Horrible example, but that was all I could come up with). The past and the present is set already, but the future can always change and the cards can help guide you through it. You can take the advice or leave it. It is up to you.
Some readings are harder than others.
I am not familiarized with dates, years, or time yet. I have some work to do there. I have gotten questions about “When will I ___ ___?” and “How long would it be until ___ happens?”
I have found a few methods and none of them seem to fix on me, I need to find one that seems right for me and my cards. I have a vague reading about those.
BUT! I am good with people and situations in life. I can give some helpful advice and insights about people in your life. It has been an emotional rollercoaster for me. I feel drained but yet energized after every reading. I forget to meditate and ground myself afterward since everything in my life is scattered. I will do that from now on.
Have some readings proven to be true?
Yes. I have gotten a few calls and messages saying what I said really did happen! They were a skeptic at first but then they came back and thanked me for the help and I am sooo happy that I could help!
I AM NOT A PROFESSIONAL CARD READER!
I am just learning the ropes and I feel like I have just gotten lucky on a few readings. But I do doubt myself on most things. You do not have to believe me or take my word for it. I am taking in questions for practice to get a better feel for my deck and learning how to read them fluently to the point where I do not have to look at my notes EVER AGAIN!
That is my goal.
Card meanings can change over time. They change with you as you progress and grow. Each card has a base meaning, but only the reader knows their cards on a deeper level and knows exactly what they are trying to say.
All card readers read their cards differently, there is no wrong or right way to do it. There are people who do it strictly from the book and others just do it out of instinct and emotion, that is their practice.
We can read the cards wrong sometimes.
I have no idea if I have or not yet, no one has come over yet and told me I was wrong so far but I know I will have a few knocking at my door saying I must have because what I said did not add up. And you know what I say to that? We are human. People make mistakes. Like doctors, technicians, lawyers, etc. we all make mistakes and it will cost us our reputation, but I can only hope and trust that I am doing the best I can! I do not want to give you a wrong reading and get away with it. I do not want that and I bet you do not either. Just let me know and I will work on that area as best I can. (The date thing is one of those things, I am sure!)
I am new at this firsthand after all.
Do I think it is wrong and “Devil Worship”?
NO. I find it to be a tool to help others. I do not even think about ANY sort of evil being when I read the cards.
There are different uses for them instead of fortune telling. It could be used to communicate with spirits if you wish and other sorts of uses.
From me? Nothing of the sort, sorry.
I am still learning something new every day!
I am so excited for this new adventure in my spiritual path and growth! It is like all my childhood dreams are coming true and I know my younger self would be proud that I am keeping true to my present and younger self.
Hope you all had a good weekend!
Have a good one!